Yahweh, Yahweh

Dear Lord,

King of Kings, Alpha, Omega, Ruler of my heart and my life. Knower of all, most selfless father, most understanding friend-

Thank you for your Grace, a gift I don't take for granted. A word I love to bathe in. Something that renews me daily even when I have not forgiven myself for the mistakes of yesterday.

Thank you for your seasons, given to me, breathing life and awe into me as I embrace each one with open arms and an excited heart, full of dreams and plans.

Thank you for waking me up without fail each day. I love this life that I live. I love getting to live it in your name, proclaiming your promises and praises! I love to experience your wonders and goodness and love!

Thank you for taking ahold of my heart at exactly the right time. Thank you for being patient as I navigate through the tangles and pride of my human heart in search of you. Not in search of righteousness or religion, just in search of a deeper, more personal, more powerful relationship with you, Yahweh. Most heavenly Father.

Thank you for the peace you instill in my troubled heart. I am such a worrier, such a planner, and you just give me a peace and a stillness that is unparalleled. My life is in your hands. I trust Your will, I trust in Your plans for me so fully! In times of trouble, instead of crying out WHY, I shout HOW! How, Lord, can I use this to shape and mold me, how can this draw me closer to you, how can I share your story and love through this trial!

Thank you for my loving family, Lord, put on this earth not only to love me but to love others and spread your word. I love how my family is so Christ driven. I love that they can set aside their own pride to pray for those who need it. I was born without uncles, but I have amazing angels for aunts, and now, I have three strong, dependable uncles who mean so much to me! They reflect you in the things they do and I admire that. My father is an image of you, and what I love about him is that he keeps trying daily! How honorable! And my mother, while not sinless and stain free like Mary, does all for her children! She is not a selfish person. Thank you for that Lord!

Thank you, good God, for my friends. I know each and everyone of them is in my life for a reason. You have helped me see who I need to keep close. Those who lift me up, inspire me, counsel me, make me laugh, and best of all, draw me closer to you. I hope that I reflect You to my friends, whether or not they believe.

Thank you for my many, many blessings, O Lord. I have a steady job, a car, clean and heated water, and many luxuries. I hope you know Lord, that I do not take them for granted, not even a second.

And Lord, this one is hard to give thanks for, but thank you for my trials. Thank you for my struggles. You have known all of them, especially the ones in my heart, and I know that while I don't have answers, you have had a bigger plan. Someday, the dots will connect and I hope to understand why there were times of doubt, lonliness, anger, guilt, pain hurt, and betrayal. Even if I do not see, I believe and I trust. The hardest ones have been to accept what life has brought, and I ask, Lord God, that I receive peace. I ask that I may understand and accept Your will, whatever it may be.

Amen