Viva Forever.

It is late and I should be sleeping-but you know I'm not. Instead, I'm thinking about upcoming "See You Laters". I'm replaying past goodbyes. I loved you so very much. I am going to miss you every day for along time, a time I can't give a deadline too. And that is okay. Missing is okay, tears are okay, hurting is okay. Hurting brings healing and healing brings growth, and with growth there is progress. Life is about progress, not regress.

You are mine and I am yours. We will always have each other. Maybe not in the future, but we have now. Today. It feels like forever, stretching on into a string of endless tomorrows. Maybe that's our forever. A string of endless tomorrows that will someday end, because it's time. Life is full of seasons, all sorts of them. Someday, ours will be over. Someday, maybe sooner rather than later, but we have now. We have a past, a beautiful, wonderful past and I will always be there, permanently in memories that may fade but will always have existed. The moments, the feelings, it all happened. It is happening around us every day, each forever just starting up or winding down. How lovely. How heartbreaking. How beautifully tragic.

Whatever our forever is, I have you. I have had you. I have gotten to know your wisdom, your strength, your love. I have been blessed tenfold by you, and I'm sure when you are gone it will increase more as I take everything you taught me, you showed me, you gave me, and pass it on to others. Strangers, family, friends. Others.

So thank you for everything. The good, the bad, the downright magical. No one else could have given me what you have. No one else could have been in that moment with me. It was just you. Just us. Two people in a relationship not any of the other 6 billion people in the world could replicate. How special. How amazing.

I pray that I rub off on you. May you be a little more hopeful, a little fiercer, a little more passionate, a little more headstrong. But stay you darling. Because now, in this moment, I love you exactly as you are.